Harrowing Week

A lot has happened this week. And I still need time to process it all. Our little collective, the people and communal consciousness took a hit but I think we will survive it.

For some reason or because of all that has been going on, I have been reading about and watching podcasts on the collective consciousness of our world. Most say we are in deep doodoo. That we have to slog through chaos, destruction, and sorrow before we get to the other side (five to ten years from now). And then they caution, "Don't be afraid. That will only feed dark energy." WTF! I am afraid, and now I feel guilty for feeding the shadows.

But the parallel between the upheaval in my little world and the upheaval going on across the planet is unnerving.

So, in an effort to feed the light, I think most humans instinctively respond with kindness. But I also think that most humans, until Rush Limbaugh, were brought up with governors on their own cruelty or even impoliteness. In my younger days, it didn't occur to me to publicly spew violent or hateful words toward a stranger. It's not that I haven't had hurtful thoughts about a colleague or friend. I think we all have internal rants. But I would never, to this day, post personal, ugly comments in a communal setting.

This is fresh to me because someone commented on my FB page (under my photo of my new flag pole displaying the US flag with a rainbow flag), "I'd like to burn the queer."

Is this a real desire? Does expressing that kind of vileness make the person feel better about themselves? I get someone being afraid of who I am or even being affronted. So you talk to me about it, or you remain silent. But blasting it full bore like a foghorn on a clear night seems pointless to me.

Most of the podcasters say love is the cure and the outcome of what's ahead. I hope that's true. But how do we lose the idea that certain people aren't worthy of our love?